| Martyrdom and Such...Today I had some pretty big epiphanies while I was power washing a fence on site (which might I add I have gotten quite the hang of)....
I martyr myself...
I make myself a martyr when i have no business doing that...
I'm going to stop...
It's dumb...
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| To know you and be known by you....This week has brought about lots of questions and doubts and concerns and none of them really have to do with me...
I have successfully completed 4 weeks of camp at Mississippi College and I.AM.TIRED.
Being away from home has proven to be...difficult...this summer. I have people at home that I miss desperately and people here that I will miss desperately when I go home...being away from the people I love always tends to put things in perspective for me. I can ask myself the questions that maybe I can't drum up when I'm in the thick of my life back home. I have a lot of things that are swirling in my head right now. I tend to be a think-er ahead-er for some reason. It's really hard for me to live day to day because I am always thinking about two weeks in advance. I feel for the first time in life someone understands aspects of me that no one has ever really been able to understand. It's bizarre and slightly unnerving (not in a bad way but in a caught off guard way).
Perspective is a weird thing....
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| Something to do on my day off...What is your current obsession?
I don't know if I would say I'm currently obsessed with anything but I am really into looking at old vinyl record and cassette tapes....found some treasures at a thrift store the other day (James Taylor on vinyl...mhhhmmm)
What is your current favorite memory?
Christmas time at my Grandmama's and Pappy's....chocolate pretzels and fudge were in high supply :)
Starbucks or Peet's?
Starbucks....I used to really like PJ's but now they are no more...sad day
What's for dinner?
If it's my choice...either greek food or mexican food...
What would you eat for your last meal?
Chicken chimichanga and house dressing from Trejo's
What's the last thing you bought?
A trash can, some unmentionables, shampoo, stuff to survive at Mississippi college
What are you listening to right now?
Ben Folds (always), Mewithoutyou, Ingrid Michaelson, and The Beatles (Sgt. Pepper's)
What is your favorite ice-cream flavour?
Ben and Jerry's Phish Food....yummmm
What was your favorite toy growing up?
My cabbage patch doll....Nonnie
If you could go anywhere in the world for the next hour, where would you go?
Greece
Which language do you want to learn?
I think it would be really cool to speak french...
What's your favorite quote (for now)?
" Do or do not, there is not try"-Yoda (classic)
What is your favorite colour?
I really love cools blues and greens....I'm also a big fan of yellow
What is your favorite piece of clothing in your own wardrobe?
Probably my Vans...most comfortable shoes hands down
What is your dream job?
Teaching a first or second grade class.....that's all I want is to teach...
What is your worst habit?
I'm worrisome and bite my nails....my mom HATES that I bite my nails...
If you had $100 now, what would you spend it on?
Music Music and more Music
Do you admire any one's style?
Anyone that can pull off vintage...I love the way it looks but on me I just look like I'm trying to hard
Describe your personal style?
I'm a jeans and t shirt kinda girl...I like an occasional dress or skirt but I'm by no means girly
What are you going to do after this?
Sit and talk with my friends Allison and Jenna...then we're going to go eat some dinner
What are your favourite movies?
There are far too many to list, but a sample would be: Little Miss Sunshine, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, My Fair Lady, Garden State, Stand By Me....
What is your favourite fruit?
I used to love pineapple and now I get really sick off of it....but I wold have to say granny smith apples or green grapes
What inspires you?
Kindness
Your favorite book?
Currently....Sex, Drugs, and Cocoa Puffs by Chuck Klosterman
Do you collect something?
I started a collection of old tea cups from different thrift stores and flea markets....I wouldn't even say it was a collection but maybe someday it will be.
What are you most proud of?
That I can look beyond the strereotypes of people (for the most part) and try to see them as the person God intended them to be.
What do you like most about yourself?
same
What is your go-to nail polish color?
some sort of pale pink color....but I don't wear nail polish soooo....
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| Dear Fuge...you make me very tiredSo this is the second day of full camp.....I don't know why but I am much more tired this time around than I was last time around. I've had some ups and downs as far as being here and being away from people that I dearly care for. The kids are great....my site is great...my heart hurts a little but is still thumping along.
This feeling I am feeling is really weird. There's no name or diagnosis for it.
I simply feel....wrong.
Not wrong in a bad way or wrong in a "something is wrong" kind of way. Something is just not sitting well with me and I can't quite figure out what it is. I'm not sad or depressed or ready to jump off the nearest dorm roof.
I simply feel like I am missing something.
It's weird.... |
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| I'm MC bound in t minus 2 days....I can't believe that the summer is already here. It's wild to think about this past year (really the past month) and see where I've come from there. I am excited about camp. I'm not gonna lie I wasn't sure how about leaving for camp with the (ahem) special? circumstances that I have this summer. All I can say is that it's been talked about and I have no doubt in my mind that everything will be A ok. It's nice having that reassurance that someone's not gonna break up with you or get jealous when you are gone. I'm not gonna say that it's gonna be easy...cause it's not.
I have really been getting excited the last few days. I think camp is gonna be great. I just had to get in the right mindset.
I think Jen said it best. I am a pretty lucky gal. |
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